Welcoming the holidays

A family Christmas tradition: decorate, decorate, decorate, then enjoy the surroundings while drinking a glass of sparkling cider.


A Family Photo: minus 5 family members.
( My mom's side of the family)

Let the Holidays begin!! I have just come back home from a few days of Thanksgiving celebrations with my family. I’ll be heading back to school tomorrow morning. I am very much looking forward to the end of the semester, but I’m dreading the three weeks of work I still have to go through to get to it. The semester has gone so quickly! Yet, when I think of all the things I have learned and gone through I can hardly believe it has only been a semester.

This week I have had such a refreshing taste of tradition. I was able to spend time with many of the people who love me the most, know me the best, and who have guided me from infancy to womanhood. I see the impact family has made on my life. It is a blessing to have a strong (and LARGE) support system in my life.

I am so glad that it is once again the time of year when I can say:

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Lighting experiment

Story time with Natalie:

One night this week, Felisha and I took a walk around campus and we ended up at the PBC. Note to self: empty stomach + PBC credit + pudding = inevitable high-calorie intake. After we managed to consumed a whole lot of chocolate pudding we decided that we should do some cardio workout to clear our consciences. (Good intentions; Bad result) After our lovely work out, we came across a well lit field where we decided to experiment with the camera lighting. So the pictures that follow are the results of this experiment. This may sound completely random and disconnected from the pictures themselves, but I hope you appreciate the art of them more by knowing the story behind their existence. Enjoy.

Sunsets

I have become (even more) obsessed with sunsets! Just know that it is even more beautiful in person. These pictures don't do it justice.

Indecision disorder

I have recently become increasingly irritated about my incapability to make on-the-spot decisions. I have diagnosed myself with an indecision disorder. For example, I walk into a Mexican food restaurant and I am presented with a list of options, I can narrow it down to about 4 choices: quesadilla, burrito, taco, or taco salad. It is at this point that my mind goes blank, or rather scrambles itself to the point of numbness. I create a list of pros and cons for each option: nutrition: go for the Salad, taste: burrito, amount of food: taco, etc. My mind just runs races before each decision!
The other day I was standing in line at the PBC (Point Break Café) letting customer after customer go ahead of me while I decided what to purchase. I became so irritated by this that I turned to Felisha (who had the grace to stand there with me while I embarrassed myself) and said “What is wrong with me!?” (Or something to that effect.) She then made a quick psycho-analytical judgment, because she is just that awesome, and said “Natalie, you treat every meal like it’s your last.” I was stupefied by the truth, so I walked up to the counter and without looking at the menu, ordered the first thing that came to my mind. I can’t even remember what it was now. Ever since then I have been baffled by this mental stupidity of mine.
So here is my conclusion of sorts: I have a controlling/ perfectionist problem. I am afraid of making a decision that may produce harmful effects, like extra poundage, because it would prove to me that I have weakness. So I have been doing a decision exercise. If I know I have a big decision ahead of me, I do the laborious task of listing pros and cons and evaluating the potential outcome of my decision before the crunch time. If I begin to waiver, I force myself to stick to the plan whether or not I want to do so. It has begun to pay off in simple ways, such as the ability to sleep for an extra 15 minutes because I have already decided what to wear in the morning.
Next time I walk into a Mexican food restaurant my order will be one burrito, or maybe a taco salad, I haven’t decided yet.

Be Still

I didn't realize how much time I would have on my hands without the biology class. This is probably a good thing because I would have been tempted to give up much earlier!

Everyday I'm struck with the beauty of this place. I live here! The Lord that created and controls this masterpiece loves me! I am in awe.

"Be still and know that I am God;

I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."

-Psalm 46:10

Growth

You will make known to me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; In Your right hand there are pleasures forever.

-Psalm 16:11

I have been quite unfaithful in keeping this blog updated. I will try to do better. Naturally, a lot of things have changed since I last wrote, so I shall attempt to make these all known. In short, I have changed my major, dropped a class, felt serious financial strain, and learned a lot about my ability (or lack of ability) to be flexible, available, and teachable. (FAT!) At the same time, I have had wonderful experiences with my family and friends, old and new.

Academically this semester has been challenging. I began with 6 classes but they only amounted to 16 units. My Biochemistry class was most definitely an eye opener. It really made me question my sanity and reasoning. Why did I choose a major which is founded mostly on the subject in which I am least capable? Good question! Needless to say I found myself struggling for breath under a sea of science books. (Which are now for sale by the way if you would like them!) I couldn’t believe that the first class that would go toward my major could cause me such grief and the knowledge of the others to come was enough to send me running to my advisor. I am now in the group of “undeclared” college students. This has been an unexpected roadblock; I have yet to find an appropriate detour. All I can do right now is to surrender the steering wheel to the Lord. Each time I try to take over I am blindsided and humbled, without His direction I am lost.
I am listening to music while writing this and the song that just began to play perfectly captures my heart! I don’t think it’s a coincidence. Here are the lyrics:

Speak in this close communion

Though this hour seems timeless still

I wait for your words that bid me come

Breathe in me, Holy Spirit

The will when my tomorrow comes

To follow when this song is gone

So I await the words that you say

I open my life

I am longing just to hear these words

That you say, that you say

Shape me with words of wisdom

Free my torn heart from this world

Renew my mind and form my will

Teach me to wholly offer

More than words that I can sing

So I become the song I bring

So I await the words that you say

I open my life

I am longing just to hear these words

That you say, that you say

Speak in this close communion

Though this hour seems timeless still
I wait for your words that bid me come
Breathe in me, Holy Spirit
The will when my tomorrow comes
To follow when this song is gone

So I await the words that you say

I open my life

I am longing just to hear these words

That you say, that you say

So I await the words that you say

I open my life

I am longing just to hear these words

That you say, that you say

Can I be an instrument of praise

And here pursue your heart

So my life will tell of who you are

Can I be a channel of your love

A reflection of your light

And live to bring you praise and serve you, Lord

So I await the words that you say

I open my life

I am longing just to hear these words

That you say, that you say

“Words That You Say”
-Something Like Silas